Here we go…

There were a number of reasons we decided to go ahead with a post mortem with Max. It wasn’t an easy decision to let them take him, to lose precious time with him, to allow his delicate little body to be damaged, however gently. We decided to go ahead because we knew we needed any … Continue reading Here we go…

Max’s 4th Birthday

Today is your 4th birthday. As the years go by I find it more difficult to imagine how you would have been. I picture a mop of dark hair, sticking out in unruly tangles. I picture your favourite red hoody, jean clad legs getting less chubby and more gangly by the day. I picture you … Continue reading Max’s 4th Birthday

If Only…

4 years ago today was your due date. For 9 long months I had counted towards it, growing increasingly certain that it would end with you warm and pink and wriggling in my arms. Being due on New Year’s eve always felt sort of extra special. People were always tickled to hear it. They loved … Continue reading If Only…